Wednesday, August 13, 2008
i feel so down now. i think i'll eventually get coronary heart disease cuz of STRESS! D:today was junan's birthday. didn't know till they [3 unity folks and some ex-classmates] celebrated it after school around 2.40pm. just looking at them smiling, some laughing, makes me wonder how bonded their class is. anyone can talk to everyone in that class. they sure do live up to their class name. unity. yeah.
such a depressing week. i've been really sensitive these few days. don't know why. the littlest of things bother me very much. my thoughts run far and deep. i got the 7ahs support and all my other good peeps, but something is still missing. i keep thinking of things that will never ever happen in a billion zillion years. extremely disturbing and distracting. like... ... ... i still think he's cute, no matter what ;D
been missing out on olympics these few days. darn it. school time dominates the entire week. now there's biology supplementary on saturday. another day of olympics missed. olympics rock because... can't wait for the Singapore 2010 youth olympics, unless... then i'll be so super disappointed.
ok this blog post is full of dots. i can't write much because of the highlighting thingy. most of the details are in my mind. want to fill in the blanks? well it's not really possible unless you know what i'm talking about.
should i migrate? maybe.
i keep having high hopes that something will happen. and when it doesn't, i get so darn sad. now i'm just thinking that... oh nevermind. this is my issue. nothing to do with you. i just keep thinking so impractically. need to be more realistic. IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN! i'm flooding my brain with these 4 words so that my other stupid thoughts will be displaced out of my head. not really working. the more i chant it, the stronger my thoughts.
oh just forget it. i'm making this post seem so messy. sorry folks. not the ideal mood that you expect from sam.
p.s if it DOES happen, will you be my pen pal? i'll be good and brush up on my english :)